blueberries, bread chocolate, coffee v milk cig
2 oranges
a little less than 2 pita, hummus, oil, salads with oil. fries, ketchup
58 min walk
small vanilla pastry, small chocolate snack, coffee v milk, cig.
blueberries, bread v chocolate, coffee v milk, cig.
20 min self health coaching:
I'm after the cig and I feel drugged
it's 22:51 and I'll sleep after the laundry
till then, I'll do the coaching and read vegan recipes or a protocol for 14 raw vegan days.
I'm not changing
I keep repeating the same loops.
tomorrow I work and then I go to a lesson. I'm not sure I'll have time for exercising
what do you mean? you can do power exercises at home or yoga.
my belly's full now.
what will cause me to change? to avoid coffee and cig tomorrow morning?
I don't know
what will cause me to avoid a cig after work? or at the end of the day?
I think I need to slow down
slow down
make fewer appointments
for example an option of another lesson after tomorrow's afternoon lesson is not necessary
although I feel I want to
what can I do in my spare time?
I can read my books, I have about 26+ books I read
I can work out
make a salad
use the helping tools: YouTube, Facebook groups, Instagram, emails, people, writing exercises
there's a long list
I can meditate
I have extra work from work (checking tests and projects)
so, I can fill my spare time with many things and not drugs (coffee, cigarettes, outside food etc).
so, if I have so many things to do in my spare time and not the bad things I do, why do I keep doing them?
because I have a human nature of self-destruction.
I can read about it more and understand it, read about ways to deal and avoid it
Isn't there other ways?
Am I ready for tomorrow work?
I'm stressed at work
if I was more prepared, more professional, I wasn't stressed about it.
I guess I should return to allocate time for getting prepared for my work. so, I should arrive to my workplace earlier and fill a column of lessons plans.
ok, I'll do it, with Your help, no vow.
what else?
the lesson I'm going to tomorrow afternoon is far. should I ride the motorcycle or take a bus?
I know I want to take a bus
let's see what time I finish working and how long it takes to get there and return:
1 hour ride
and there's one bus
I need to leave at 5
I finish working at 14:25
I'll be at home at 15:00
I have 2 hours at home to rest, wash the dishes, meditate, run, exercise, practice yoga, make a salad, eat my cooked food.
and the lesson is finished at 20:00 so I can be home at 21:00
and on Tuesday morning I start at: 8:15 again. early in the morning.
and then, I have a 1.5 days off, so I can relax.
so, Wednesday is off but I either work at a trip or meet a friend for picking vegetables.
then, Thursday, is a long day at work, but I don't have plans for later.
20 minutes are over
let's recap
If I want to see some changes in my behavior
I think I should:
slow down
prepare the lessons I give, so I should arrive to work earlier
tomorrow, I have 2 hours at home, before I take a bus to a lesson to:
eat my cooked food, make a salad, wash the dishes, rest, practice yoga, run, and do power exercises at home.
after the lesson, I should take the bus home because I start to work early on Tuesday.
and tomorrow I'll better know what I'm doing on Wednesday.
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