weight:
food:
chocolate croissant coffee v milk cig
pita hummus egg
half banana coffee v milk cig
I cooked quinoa + lentils + red onion
I cut tofu, tomato
and added the dish + veggies + tofu + lemon, tahini, ground flax seeds, maple syrup, soy sauce, alfalfa sprouts
dried fig
coffee v milk cig.
19:23 update
I think, I need to be more active. besides 1 hour gym today, I walked,
there was no BM (bowel movement)
I worked while standing in front the laptop
I tidied up, that was being active
I think I need 5 pictures of my healthy meals a day: salad, fruit, pistachio. carrot sticks, coconut water, orange juice etc.
and 5 writing exercises and self-health coaching updates.
tomorrow, I finish work at 15:40 and at 19:45 I need to be in Ramat Gan. I'll see what to do. to go straight from work there or to stop at home.
anyway, it's a birthday party with food.
I bring 2 natural juices. (and ice cubes)
I'm more relaxed now about my obligation on Saturday which I had to get prepared for many hours.
so, I can dedicate time to my healing.
On Friday, I'll have work from work to do in my free time.
alright.
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writing exercise: How should I think today and tomorrow to lead a healthy lifestyle?
what if I wake up tomorrow, eat an apple for a bowel movement, or hot water with lemon, and go straight to work without that bad habit I had in the past of smoking and drinking coffee?
What if I drink green tea tomorrow morning with vegan milk?
what if, after tomorrow's long day at work ( my Thursdays), I'm coming home, eat my cooked food, make a salad, drink coconut water or herbal tea, and take a rest, without smoking and coffee as I used to back in the past?
what if I'm going tomorrow to that party and eat a little bit, leaving a space in my stomach to feeling, staying alert, talk, etc.?
what if I go for a run tomorrow morning? or tomorrow after work? or on Friday morning or noon?
What if I practice yoga tomorrow?
can I take 5 pictures tomorrow? of my healthy meals? can I do 5 writing exercises and self-health coaching updates?
Can I meditate tomorrow?
Can I come to work clean? what will I feel? maybe I won't think about it while working? maybe I'll thank myself for not being stinking among my colleagues?
how will I feel if I'll skip coffee and cig after work and get to bed and tell myself, that I don't need it, neither after sleeping nor before bedtime at night?
I need more of these writing exercises.
writing exercise
what's my story? what is my story?
what do I need to quit smoking? why do I smoke? if I'm so into a healthy lifestyle, why do I smoke? if I understand why should I be vegan, why do I consume animal products?
why do I have a self-destructive inclination? why do I listen to it? why do I give it control?
what will make me change my bad habits?
what will make me eat healthy, let the body clean itself and lose fat?
why didn't I keep my weight when it was 74 kilograms? why, although I dedicated so much effort, instead of at least keeping my weight, I became weighing 98 kilograms today?
how can I solve my riddle? how can I awake from my loop/ cloud/ fog?
what should I do to start eating cleaner or to listen more to my body and let it lose fat?
what?
maybe I need more time for myself alone at home
without scheduling meetings with friends
maybe I need to be free of obligations except for work
I need more time to clean, tidy up, make food, prepare food, cook, make salads,
learn, read, exercise, run, go to the gym
alright
good night.
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