יום ראשון, 19 במרץ 2023

Sunday mar 19,23

 Weight:

Food-+ exercising:

Cucumber

Green tea

Potato burekas, chocolate pastry, espresso v milk cig

2 clementines

5 clementines

falafel, coffee  v milk, cig. 

date, clementine, date

Bite of sushi

Zero coke cig.

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10 min update

here it how it went:

I finished work at work

I encountered THE VOID 

then I encountered depression and sadness from thinking of the void, of being alone at home

(which doesn't make sense. I like being home, spending my time, doing the helping tools)

instead, my mind started to think of other ways to fill the void

I chatted with a friend

who lives near the workplace 

(but far from my home)

he said he's free too

(he lied, I have his house key)

so, I rode to a falafel (which means pita, and fried food)

ate it

and then, had espresso with v milk and cig

the success story was that I didn't add a pastry

and there was a gift for You in the meeting I had  at work, where cakes were served and I prepared this potential gift not to touch them

a colleague even offered me a piece of cake on a plate and I said 'no' twice.

but, after the the coffee, and even when I was on my way to my friend

I started to feel the drawbacks of this choice.

after the coffee and cig, I felt horrible. the bitterness of the coffee and the death of the cigarette.

I'm in his house now. I'll work, because this is what I want to do here, finish my workplace work.


later

I'll ride home

there are no plans for today

except for yoga at home, a run in the neighborhood, a walk, bodyweight exercises and using the tools

oh yea, I have homework as well in a supplementary course. 

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23:19 update

It's the end of day

I didn't exercise

Tomorrow I finish  work at 14:25 and at 20:30 there's an evening for the workers including food and karaoke

I should not overeat.

Now I'm going to sleep with a pretty empty belly.

I guess I have lots of mucoid plaque in the walls of my gut.

I didn't eat my quinoa today, tofu, wakame, I didn't cook, make a salad

It's late. Too late for writing. Gn

I'm tired but not so happy

Maybe this is how it is

In sadness you shall do to sleep

Or

Men cry at nights


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