18:47 20 minutes
another bad day of diet.
today, I didn't wake up to work out.
I had a hard time falling asleep last night.
I bought a cigarette last night. maybe it made me awake.
Today, I got a half package of cigarettes from a friend.
I've smoked 2 already today.
Although I'm in debt, which I'm going to see tomorrow in my bank account, I still spend money on eating out.
the solution is food preparation.
so, I went to the supermarket today
I've started a 4.5-day holiday. the shops will be closed. so I must start preparing food.
there is stress at work. I'm a teacher and some classes take my energy.
of course if I look better they will give me more respect and I'll spend less energy and end my day there exhausted.
The other direction, this work exhausts me and then I must eat to fuel myself physically and mentally.
anyway, another thought of mine. I should number the meals.
meal number 1: protein, chocolate pastry + coffee v milk cig + sandwich omelet, cream cheese, veggies.
meal 2: at the teacher event, few sandwiches, apples in honey, ( we got a honey cake, I feel like having some), and 2 small chocolate
then I went shopping
I walked the dog to her vet
and when we were back
meal 3: potato burekas, tomato, mushroom burekas ( I threw rotten vegetables), then 2 chocolate pastries ( I bought vegan chocolate paste), coffee v milk, cig.
I went to sleep
I woke up
meal 4: smoothie of 3 bananas + clear protein
and now it's 21:28. I believe I'll smoke before I go to sleep.
tomorrow morning, I plan to go to the gym
I might go again to the Bat Yam branch
anyway, I need to be at home at 11:00 am for an online lesson.
lastly, it's important that I keep updating this blog.
22:26. it's time to sleep.
I had a blueberry herbal tea + v milk + cig.
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