there is stress in my belly
I am stressed
but I should relax.
I can trust G-d and let him guide me.
it's easy to say than practice.
lately I eat a lot.
a lot of junk.
do I want to change it?
yes
this is why I'm writing now, here.
Do I want to change it?
I'm despair, and tired of this situation, my self confidence is low, do I want to change it?
I want to eat less junk food, yes. I want to clean my body, yes.
why?
I should meditate.
I should return to running.
I just need to stop eating
stop turning to food
even if my belly is full, I still want food. specific food. exciting food. chocolate, bread, I don't know, sandwiches. coffee, cigs.
I sense the pressure in my belly
I sense the extra fat in my chest. man's boobs.
I find myself eat when I'm not hungry.
tomorrow, it's a new month. I'm not going to renew my monthly bus pass.
instead, I'm going to use my bike to school.
I'm flying right after the end of the year
for 2 months
I need to find solution to my cat and plants
so, I'm going to use the bike more.
I need to organize my fridge
maybe to have 1 hour of health coaching every day.
today I had power workout. where is it written? I don't have a table for this week.
should I make one?
yes.
what are my goals?
1. quit smoking
2. quit coffee
3. quit animals' products
the pressure in my belly is high
I'm tired and I stay writing here
but my eyes are tired
and especially my belly become bloated.
I'm trying to reach health
but staying up when I'm tired, doesn't help
on the other hand
how can I break my addictions?
I'm going to sleep
soon
any way, I stop having health coaching while I'm tired
am I tired? or it's the bloating belly sensation that I can't stand?
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