6:04 I woke up early
I might return to sleep
I feel sadness about the issue the theatre raised
And more emotions about more subjects
It's time me to practice doing something with the emotions either than bury them by eating and smoking
It's either to feel them
Or to convert them to joy ?
I chose cake coffee cig
I'm bad
12:30
I went to the gym. I forgot 2 bananas at home.
I started to work out. felt weak. went out to eat. could choose fruit. chose 4 burekas pastries (2 not vegan) sweet pastry, coffee cig and then completed the workout.
it's a new week. talked to some friends about personal challenges. I felt their support.
I have 2 bananas, nectarines, watermelons
I have quinoa dish with lentils
hala bread, hummus, eggplant salad, cake,
I'm over fat
I saw a fit guy in the gym and fit guys yesterday in the theatre
I deal with problems in my life but there will always be problems
the fit guys have problems too
there are fit people who live in the same stressed western world who don't overeat, who don't smoke, so I can deal with my stress in other ways too.
How can I do it?
how can I deal with my stress/boredom in healthy ways?
1. I can attend more OA meetings
2. I can read freely (on the internet) about specific issues rather than general books
3. I should write everything I eat
4. I should drink more water, eat more fruit and vegetables, make more salads, eat my cooked food, throw/ give away the eft over cake, pastries, bread
5. I can write everything I eat
I can be aware of why I eat,
6. I should somehow grow my motivation to the way I want to look. why do I want to look fit?
How do I want to look? why?
I'm sleepy at the moment
just made an appointment with a friend
to visit an exhibition. I must rest. I feel sleepy. I don't have to share everything with her.
especially if she's not excited to hear.
I stop now because I'm tired.
updates:
with my friend I had a smoothie
after she left
at home: I had 3-4 hala bread slices with hummus, eggplant salad, vegetables salad
then, unfortunately another fall, like to end the eating: a cake, coffee sugar cig.
must find the way out.
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