15:42.
there's food at home. there's bread. hummus. salad. fuck I want it now.
on the other hand, the sensation in my belly: there is something. it's not loose. there's pressure and still there's craving. an urge. an attraction to eat bread, hummus and salad.
I want to write everything I eat.
I didn't do it today until now.
Thank G-d, I found a job. it's not final 'cause I'm checking one more option, but at least I have something in my hand. and I'll try to make my decision as quick as possible.
any way
I should talk about food here, about my health, and only in general about my life.
so, there's something stressing in work. that's enough.
yesterday, I hosted friends. we were 13 people.
and I was left with lots of foods.
I ate them in the morning.
I have lots of foods right now:
watermelon, nectarines, salad from yesterday with oil which is good for today only,
dish that I cooked of quinoa, red (orange) lentils, tomato sauce, onion, beet, carrot.
bread, another bread ( I put it in the freezer), hummus, eggplant salad,
cake, pastries, salty cookies, salty roasted seeds.
about 3 baked falafel ball.
the way I document things
I need to reorganize it.
I want to write everything I eat.
It's a turbulent time in work, relationships and plans for the summer.
I want to write here in the blog more.
the future is unknown. I don't know where I'll work next year, but I know it's in Israel. at least I know that. I don't know what's the plan for the summer. maybe I'll fly to the U.S for 2 months.
20 minutes is over.
but I'll keep writing here.
16:15 I ate 3 falafel balls, 2 Hala bread slices, hummus, eggplant salad and vegetables salad.
not I'm full.
17:16 pressure in my belly
18:33 I ate roasted pistachio + sunflower seeds
20:27 I fell and smoke
I ran out of energy now
So stupid of me
No oxygen
Oh, I think that I smoke because of the energy I felt from my friend now
So what will happen if I’ll work with children who come broken families, I’m used to eat and smoke after that
Before I ate mufleta bread with honey
After the emotional theatre show I ate another mullet bread with honey, 2 pieces of sfinj donuts
At home coke with cig.
Emotions: sorrow, emotional pain, life is not simple, problems in relationship, disappointment, rejected, low self-esteem, overweight,
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