I’ve just
eaten a lot again
but I think a little bit less than usual.
I smoked 3 cigs today already
it's 19:32
I think I've left about 4 cigs
and I plan/wish/ pray that I'll be strong not to buy another package
maybe on my foreign birthday on Monday, which I didn't know what to do, I'll devote, dedicate and allocate the time to work on myself. for the helping tools.
I can read books, meditate, journal, run, go to the gym,
because tomorrow (Sunday),
after a short night of sleep (tonight), I have a long day at work
So, I'll probably need to sleep tomorrow after school which is already late for a gym
but maybe I will work out tomorrow.
I added the daily paper 2nd priority tools: like weighing myself, measuring my circumference,
meditation, updating the blog
alright, it's time for some writing exercises regarding 2023
it's hard for me to breathe after this food +cig
would I believe i didn't smoke between July 15 to October 1st?
I don't have children, and yet, although I have more time, I keep falling in food
I have a long list of helping tools and still fall
lately the situation is worse, my TSH went up to 70, 63
I gained more weight, there are more clothes I don't it to
why is this getting worse?
my breathe stinks because I smoked
why is it getting worse? with all the tools, and all the time I have?
the question is, again, what should I do to change my situation?
1. meditate daily
2. keep having the daily paper in the new format with the food and fitness on top
3. don't schedule meetings, devote your time for concentrating the problem and the solutions
maybe, put the lessons aside
maybe I need to strengthen my state of mind regarding the fuel I insert this body and only then can I do other stuff, out of a place of being clean first, like attending lessons etc.
4. I should weigh myself everyday
5. I should do writing exercises everyday
answer questions like: why is it working this time?
what changes I can make?
fake till till you make it
etc
6. runs, even short, until there's a foundation of 3 runs a week
7. yoga at home
8. making a salad every day, cooking. healthy shopping, using a shopping list, a constant list and a current list.
9. sleeping well at night, taking midday naps.
10. following content of fit vegans on Facebook, Instagram, YouTube
11. listening to fit vegan podcasts
I think that it happens again
I was focused, then I started to spread and now I try to focus again and then I might spread again
I mean, Roee, there are tools. that I can use out of a clean place, stay clean and go to lessons
10 minutes,
Fake till you make it. What’s going to me on 2023?
I’m a non
smoker
I take care
of my health, my body,
I fuel my
body with clean food
I control
my eating
there are
foods I eat, there are foods I don’t eat
I exercise
daily, on many days, a few times a day, I’m active
I sleep
well
I take naps
I read, I learn,
I get inspired, I write, I fill my mind with lifting content.
I lose
weight
I become
fit, and strong
I can do 1
pull – ups
I can run 6
minutes
I don’t mind
being alone and concentrating on my change.
I do writing
exercises
I overcome
urges. urges, emotions, feelings, being pulled to do something, being pushed to
something, is part of human life. the solution is to accept the existence of
these pulls and pushes, but, not to react to them, not to let them push/pull
you into acts, wrong acts.
meditation
helps, I meditate every day.
I eat
leaves, I eat seaweeds, TSH is normal. I don’t smoke, I avoid coffee, I avoid
stimulants, I shit twice a day, I listen to my stomach/belly and eat only when
I’m hungry, I choose the right food (fuel) and stop eating when it’s enough
according to the feeling/ sensation in my belly.
I’m
building a wall as my torso.
10
min – why is it working this time?
because I’m
tired of this worst situation
because l
is abroad and I have time
because I
live by myself
because
Gigi doesn’t bother me at nights
because I
meditate daily, I stick to the daily paper, I stick to changing, to using the
helping tools,
because
finally I’m doing this writing exercise
because I’m
back to writing exercises and not only to getting other successful people’s
content.
because I don’t
have money to spend on junk food.
because I don’t
have money to buy cigarettes.
because I overate.
I ate for many occasions.
because I’m
in Raw food heroes, and I’ve paid them, to be part of this group. I listen to
the replys, the livestreams.
because I
enjoy all branches of Space gym membership.
because my
apartment is tidied up right now.
because Idan
is far.
because I
see that it’s easy to make a salad
because I
found things I can have outside: juice, smoothie, salad, cooked whole gluten
free food, herbal and green tea
because I
let myself to buy a vegan healthy chocolate
because I
can eat healthy chocolate with a banana.
because I
can eat everyday nuts and dried fruit
because I
imagine my desired body
because I
see myself naked in the mirror every day for 5 minutes and it help me to remember
where I am
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