Saturday, December 31st, 2022

I’ve just eaten a lot again

but I think a little bit less than usual. 

I smoked 3 cigs today already

it's 19:32

I think I've left about 4 cigs

and I plan/wish/ pray that I'll be strong not to buy another package

maybe on my foreign birthday on Monday, which I didn't know what to do, I'll devote, dedicate and allocate the time to work on myself. for the helping tools. 

I can read books, meditate, journal, run, go to the gym, 

because tomorrow (Sunday), after a short night of sleep (tonight), I have a long day at work

So, I'll probably need to sleep tomorrow after school which is already late for a gym

but maybe I will work out tomorrow.

I added the daily paper 2nd priority tools: like weighing myself, measuring my circumference, 

meditation, updating the blog

alright, it's time for some writing exercises regarding 2023

it's hard for me to breathe after this food +cig

would I believe i didn't smoke between July 15 to October 1st?

I don't have children, and yet, although I have more time, I keep falling in food 

I have a long list of helping tools and still fall

lately the situation is worse, my TSH went up to 70, 63 

I gained more weight, there are more clothes I don't it to

why is this getting worse?

my breathe stinks because I smoked

why is it getting worse? with all the tools, and all the time I have?

the question is, again, what should I do to change my situation?

1. meditate daily

2. keep having the daily paper in the new format with the food and fitness on top

3. don't schedule meetings, devote your time for concentrating the problem and the solutions

maybe, put the lessons aside

maybe I need to strengthen my state of mind regarding the fuel I insert this body and only then can I do other stuff, out of a place of being clean first, like attending lessons etc.

4. I should weigh myself everyday

5.  I should do writing exercises everyday

answer questions like: why is it working this time?

what changes I can make?

fake till till you make it

etc

6. runs, even short, until there's a foundation of 3 runs a week

7. yoga at home 

8. making a salad every day, cooking. healthy shopping, using a shopping list, a constant list and a current list.

9. sleeping well at night, taking midday naps.

10. following content of fit vegans on Facebook, Instagram, YouTube

11. listening to fit vegan podcasts

I think that it happens again

I was focused, then I started to spread and now I try to focus again and then I might spread again

I mean, Roee, there are tools. that I can use out of a clean place, stay clean and go to lessons

10 minutes, Fake till you make it. What’s going to me on 2023?

I’m a non smoker

I take care of my health, my body,

I fuel my body with clean food

I control my eating

there are foods I eat, there are foods I don’t eat

I exercise daily, on many days, a few times a day, I’m active

I sleep well

I take naps

I read, I learn, I get inspired, I write, I fill my mind with lifting content.

I lose weight

I become fit, and strong

I can do 1 pull – ups

I can run 6 minutes

I don’t mind being alone and concentrating on my change.

I do writing exercises

I overcome urges. urges, emotions, feelings, being pulled to do something, being pushed to something, is part of human life. the solution is to accept the existence of these pulls and pushes, but, not to react to them, not to let them push/pull you into acts, wrong acts.

meditation helps, I meditate every day.

I eat leaves, I eat seaweeds, TSH is normal. I don’t smoke, I avoid coffee, I avoid stimulants, I shit twice a day, I listen to my stomach/belly and eat only when I’m hungry, I choose the right food (fuel) and stop eating when it’s enough according to the feeling/ sensation in my belly.

I’m building a wall as my torso.

 

10 min – why is it working this time?

because I’m tired of this worst situation

because l is abroad and I have time

because I live by myself

because Gigi doesn’t bother me at nights

because I meditate daily, I stick to the daily paper, I stick to changing, to using the helping tools,

because finally I’m doing this writing exercise

because I’m back to writing exercises and not only to getting other successful people’s content.

because I don’t have money to spend on junk food.

because I don’t have money to buy cigarettes.

because I overate. I ate for many occasions.

because I’m in Raw food heroes, and I’ve paid them, to be part of this group. I listen to the replys, the livestreams.

because I enjoy all branches of Space gym membership.

because my apartment is tidied up right now.

because Idan is far.

because I see that it’s easy to make a salad

because I found things I can have outside: juice, smoothie, salad, cooked whole gluten free food, herbal and green tea

because I let myself to buy a vegan healthy chocolate

because I can eat healthy chocolate with a banana.

because I can eat everyday nuts and dried fruit

because I imagine my desired body

because I see myself naked in the mirror every day for 5 minutes and it help me to remember where I am 

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Thursday, December 29, 2022

11:36, 8 minutes update 

613/30295

I ate already 3 fruit meals, nuts and dry fruit - 60% of food

for 100% food I've left: my cooked food + my salad

I plan today gym3+4un3

maybe I'll wait for 9p.m. to workout with a friend and his personal trainer

or I'll do it before and be free at night in Tel Aviv

I think that lately I'm more focus in the nutrition

I need to find the paper of the currently shopping list and the constant list

I think that I should weigh myself everyday, and watch myself naked in the mirror for 5 minutes

and maybe measure my circumference.

Wednesday, December 28, 2022

 19:36, 15 minutes update

I'm in a noisy place

but that's what there is

I asked them to lower the volume.

any  way

today: I ate 3 fruit meals, banana, persimmon, and persimmons.

I ate my cooked food. it's 80%.

I didn't eat a salad.

I'm now outside the house.

I don't have access to my kitchen,

I'll update the weekly fitness.

Tomorrow, there's a long day at work. I'll take fruit, lettuce, nuts and dry fruit, and when I get home, I'll make a salad

one barrier to making a salad is the missing tahini. I should buy a tahini.

Finally people confirmed coming to my (birthday) dinner on Friday. so, we'll do it.

today the gym workout was with a friend and his personal trainer. They invited me to work out with them tomorrow at 9p.m. I think i'll go for it. i just need to complete a run before. so maybe I'll run at 8:50 p.m.

I sprouted the mung beans, but haven't eaten them yet

they are perfect for a salad

and I have some avocado .

it's 19:50, 

oh! I used a helping tool today at the gym's showers. looking at myself naked for 5 minutes.

I think this tool helps. and I should do it daily. I don't get reminded often enough about how fat I become. I should do it daily. 

604/30295

Tuesday, December 27, 2022

 603/30295

I'm just waking up

Thinking already of bad use of materials

I must get up

In don’t believe

I wrote 43 minutes and it wasn’t saved

I didn’t save it

Any way

About 16 minutes more for 1 hour health coaching

Had a bad day

You gave me a big opportunity for a big growth today

But although I intended to eat moderately

I couldn’t help it and ate as much as my body could eat.

Lots of cheese and pastas.

The weekly fitness regime distribution is

8% for each items of runs gyms walks and yoga

2% for climbing the stairs and riding the bike.

Tomorrow, on my day off , I’ll do run2 and gym2.

Regarding food score for today, I got 20% for fruit1.

I prayed in the Kotel, to succeed in eating healthy

And to help other people

Maybe I should devote more time for engaging with natural health, getting inspired and trying to inspire others.

Just saw a guy running.

Where will I workout tomorrow? I think there’s a lesson at 9pm I want to attend

Pretty late

And the day after is a long day at work and a day for gym3+run3. ‘Cause Friday morning is work and Friday evening is my (another) birthday meal. Yesterday there were two. 

And on Saturday night I go out. For the new year. And the day after is “9” whole weeks till the end of the year. 9 in quotation marks ‘cause every week is broken to 2.5 days of work, a 1.5 days holiday, a 1.5 workdays and another  1.5 days holiday.

Monday, December 26, 2022

 16:45 10 minutes update

I had 3 fruit meals 

my cooked food

I walked for 52 minutes

I'm gonna eat a salad after this

I read for 30 minutes CoDA book

I meditated for 30 minutes, I washed the sprouted mung beans

I'm going to 2 lessons, and since it's my Hebrew birthday, I'll bring some fruit.

tomorrow, I travel to Jerusalem after work

it's gonna be a long day outside

I might work out at the gym in the morning or work

Wednesday is an off day - maybe then I'll workout

on Friday, I'm gonna host dinner for my birthday.

tomorrow at school, I think there's gonna be a meal

I should be moderate

and on Friday at the dinner as well.

I bought tickets to 2 parties

one this Saturday and one on January 26

my thought was they are reasons for me to invest in quitting smoking and eating healthy to get fit and healthy

I keep assigning percentages to different kinds  of workouts for a 100% weekly regime

and there's also  a daily percentage distribution for food:

20% to each one of fruit1, fruit 2 , fruit 3, my cooked food, my salad

yesterday I got 0%; today, for food, after the salad ( a symbolic salad of less than cucumber and tomato),  I'm gonna have 100% for today. 

601/30295

23:35 10 minutes update

Well

I brought 3 bananas to each lesson

Had to go from the first lesson before they ate

At the second lesson that mentioned food, I had kuskus and veggies. After the lesson 

I had falafel, coke and cig

But

It wrong.

I’m 44 today. It’s not my direction

This food addiction started when I was 27, 17 years! Ago

I MUST CHANGE

I MUST CHANGE

I CAN’T LET THE TASTE BUDS TO DECIDE ABOUT MY LIFE

I SHOULD WRITE MORE HERE

MORE OFTEN

3 TIMES A DAY

TEN MINUTES EACH TIME

OR MORE OFTEN

I SHOULD WRITE ABOUT MY MEALS THOUGHTS 

DESIRES TEMPTATIONS CIRCUMSTANCES

DECISIONS FEELINGS EMOTIONS SENSATIONS NEEDS

I SHOULD DO MY WRITING EXERCISES

WHO DO I WANT TO BE

WHY

WHY DO I WANT TO EAT CLEAN

WHY DO I WANT TO BE HEALTHY

I WANT A FIT BODY

I PREFER FIT BODY TO EATING TOO MUCH

I WANT TO LIVE AND ENJOY LIFE AS A FIT VEGAN

MAYBE I SHOULD HIRE A COACH AND PAY HIM

602/30295

Sunday, December 25, 2022

 16:23 update, 10 minutes

I have a daily page

on top I write things like: fruit1, fruit2, salad, my cooked food, omega 3, run, walk , gym, prepare a paper for tomorrow, etc.

and then I write the other things

it's Sunday, a new week, so, I started a a blog entry for exercising on this week

the 100% plan is 3 runs, 3 gyms, 3 walks and 3 yoga.

eat yoga and walk is 5%

each run and gym is 10%

Today, I already did 25% of this week.

on the other hand, hadn't had fruit/my salad/ my cooked food yet.

maybe I should do that as well somehow:

fruit1, fruit2, fruit3, my salad, my cooked food - each 20%

so today, now, 16:48 it's 0%.

I washed the dishes, rode the bike, 

didn't take a nap

I hid the cigarettes, anyway they are not visible now.

I'm gonna meditate now.

I invited friends for Friday night. because it's my b-day. The Hebrew birthday is starting tomorrow at sunset till Tuesday's sunset.

I plan to go out, 

although it's pouring rain outside

600/30295

Exercising Dec25-31

 100% for this week:

3 power workouts - 8% each

3 1-hour walks - 8% each

3 yoga - 8% each

3 runs - 8% each

climbing the stairs at least once - 2%

riding the bike at least once - 2%

Sun

1 power workout, 26 minutes of run/walk - (runs of 1,2,3,4,5 minutes = 15min), 1 hour walk, riding the bike - 26% completed

Mon

52 minutes walk

Tue

1:08 hours walk, 42%

Wed

gym2, 1 min run2, 58%, climbing the stairs, 60%, 

I've left 24% yoga, 16% gym3+run3

Thu

planned gym3+run3

Fri

Sat

599/30295

Thursday, December 22, 2022

 597/30295

The situation is bad

Today, so far:

Sufganiya, sufgania, coffee plant milk, 4 cheese burekas,

2 pita, salads, pickles, olives, 2 potato burekas, chocolate pastry, coffee cigarette

1-hour power workout, 3rd for this week,

No fruit meal, although along all these meals I carry 6 clementines.

I started to rewrite the daily paper

And I wrote only healthy foods and exercising

No other things at all

And did it help me today?

No

It feels like I’m in the worst health situation

I don’t think I have plans for the weekend

So I can spend maximum time for healing

Like walks runs yoga meditation 

I won’t be able to stay at home all day

So I’ll use the regular bike if it’s not raining

And ride where?

To places where I can take walks, to synagogues, to places where I can run, to meet special friends.

What else? I can read how not to die

Can participate in OA meeting, CoDA meeting, read books, rest, get inspired, have health coaching sessions like this,

Tuesday, December 20, 2022

 11:33 - 20 minutes 

I'll check if I wrote sauerkraut in the shopping list - V

today is the day for Gym2, but I decided to stay here, at home, to balance the time I escape home.

I might take with me towel and clothes but on the other hand, I'll return with food and I might help a friend to arrange his apartment.

it's the first day out of 7 days off

but it's full of plans

I might take with me the laptop 

or a notebook will do for the train to good deeds for my change/ fix

tomorrow I will travel again to the north

maybe I can combine a walk

I ate clementines today

I should eat daily green leaves

make a salad daily

eat my cooked food

listen to my belly/ stomach

take walks, ride the bike, run, run outside, run in the gym, prioritize exercising over going to events and lessons (socializing with intellect)

I need to move right now and to rest at the same time

I'm high from the coffee cigarette

and there is pressure in my belly because of too many clementines.

I might stand, or meditate

I should read

maybe I'll try to work in the sun, my feet are cold.

10 things I can do to improve my lifestyle towards a healthier one:

1. work at home

2. 3 gyms a week

3. 3 runs a week

4. daily fresh salad with green leaves like: lettuce, parsley, cilantro, mint, baby

5. TMI, CoDA, OA, NVC, reflecting about each class I teach, CoDA and OA meetings and reading

6. Raw Food Rising - weekly live streams, filmed courses, recorded live streams, texts.

7. walks

8. riding the bike

9. reading books

10. meditating. 

596/30295

Monday, December 19, 2022

 595/30295

tomorrow is the day for Gym2.

I did Gym1 yesterday. 

I have 7 days without work at my workplace.

on the other hand, I already have to family visits in the north. I must prevent them to be damaging.

in Gita lesson today he said you can feed the bad wolf and you can feed the good wolf.

I should weigh myself daily

I should devote my time for health: runs, walks, not scheduling plans with friends.

I have 11 nis budget a day for the next 25 days in order not to be in overdraft before the next salary enters.

it means buying only fruit and vegetables with my money

and scooter motor fuel.

maybe doing nothing on my birthday.

I should meditate daily

have a daily paper

learn, read, study, read books, read articles, 

listen to my belly

strengthen good habits

get inspired through YouTube

I should spend time with my self, catching up with dedicating time to health

all the events I attend ( usually for the food, the English is an excuse) don't help me do the things I want to strengthen

10 things I should do:

1. eat a  meal 1 every day

2. eat healthy protein ( sprouted lentils, edamame, lentils, chickpea, legumes, tofu)

3. add sauerkraut to the shopping list

4. add alfalfa sprouts to the shopping list

5. weigh myself daily and write the results in one place

6. sleep well

7. quit smoking

8. quit coffee

9. find healthy substitutes with higher taste

10. develop relationship with You

10 more things I can do to improve my health

1. OA meeting. finding constant group

Friday, December 16, 2022

 30 minutes update: 16:30

I'll do it together with journaling in parallel

if I'll have something personal to write.

A friend is at my house. He has bad habits. 

When I'm with him, I behave even worse than usual.

can I write what I ate today?

now I'm having a coffee plant milk

I had half pita with chocolate

before a cigarette, half pita chocolate, coffee v milk. the chocolate is not v.

before 1 pita with hummus, cucumber, tomato, lettuce

before: 4 burekas: 2 potato, 2 pizza, I ate them with the above veggies.

before:

1 hour gym

before, it was before school at home, 2 bread banana chocolate green tea cig.

how many fruit meals have I had today?

I had a banana, but with chocolate and bread, let's say it one. that's it

and the cooked food I had I gave my friend

and I didn't cooked since then

I added for today's tasks: f2, f3, make a salad, salad, cook, cooked food.

I worked out today.

tomorrow I'm helping this friend to move, so it's to lift boxes downstairs and uptsairs maybe.

today at 9p.m there's a raw vegan heroes livestream

I might participate. thank You it's 1 hour only

and if I'm not going to watch it, I'll watch it soon.

I'm going out tonight. it's something rare. we set a meeting at 23:45. and I must sleep before.

I drink my second coffee now

it feels like it's the energy of being with this friend who doesn't care too much about health in my opinion

and who smokes, drinks coffee, and eats junk food freely

but let's say it's an excuse. maybe I should be aware of the source of the urge to have a second coffee (the energy of being with him), but then, it's my choice to fulfill it, to actualize it. 

next week, I have a holiday of 7 days. Monday after work - Monday. It's time to be at home. to work with myself. this friend is moving from a close to far neighborhood. and has a course to concentrate on.

fruit1, fruit2, fruit3, making a salad, salad, cooked food, walk/run/gym.

what can help me live healthily? make healthy choices? avoid overeating? avoid eating junk foods?

1. meditate every day

2. listen to the vegan fit podcast on podcats, youtube, etc

3. RFH - raw food heroes, replays of live streams, weekly livestream, success path etc

4. run. run 3 times a week. run in the gym. run outside, outdoor, run 5 minutes, run 1 minutes. just run.

5. consume inspiration: from Facebook, YouTube, Instagram, Twitter, Reddit.

594/3095

Tuesday, December 13, 2022

 10 minutes update, 10:22

I started with 2 bread, dairy chocolate, banana, coffee ( no milk nor sugar), cigarette.

I'm at work. I have here leftover rice + lentils from yesterday

I have persimmons

I've got clothes for a workout (and a shower) after work 

I plan an  aerobic workout - a walk or a run in the gym!/ outdoor/ in the street

I plan to make a salad and eat it - I'm highlighting that now, and the fruits and the workouts.

I'm adding for today to dedicate time for My December Health Manual

tips for toady:

you have dried fruit: figs, dates, plums, apricot

I have almonds, walnut, brazil nuts, pecan, 

I have grapes, banana

drink water

you have food

go through the mindset section in December Manual, elaborate it.

eat the lettuce

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Monday, December 12, 2022

 10 minutes update, 16:06

luckily I slept a little afternoon.

At night the cat disturbed my sleep.

she disturbs me every night.

I started today with a pita, banana and chocolate, coffee ( no milk no sugar) and a cigarette

then had an apple

at 13:30 I had the rice+lentils I cooked early in the morning with free hummus and leftover of the salad I made yesterday. but the salad was expired. I ate some and threw the rest.

then I met a friend and had

1 small cheese? burekas

1 small potato

mushroom

half almond pastry

a chocolate pastry

coffee milk sugar.

I have here persimmons.

and a lot of things to do ( I have to be in the library 4 hours)

I can work, I brought my work but since I've already worked today, I intend to dedicate the time for my health/growth. Amen,

I can:

read raw bundle

vegan bundle

complete Raw Food Heroes last meeting

edit my health manual

pray

journal

watch YouTube

592/30295

Sunday, December 11, 2022

 10 minutes 1st update:

spinach burekas, potato burekas, chocolate pastry, coffee almond milk, cig ( the cigarettes are finished and I have a budget of 26 nis per day till the next salary in order to get out of the overdraft.)

clementine

quinoa + lentils + free food: white rice + 2 carrot sides

it's 15:33 and I finish working at 16:30

then I plan to have my 1st workout of the week. in Holon chain.

then I might dedicate the time to self work like: the manual, reading, 

I can take a walk and listen to 

OA meeting, CoDA meeting and RFH recording 

I ate fruit1, I have persimmons, and an apple

I should make my daily salad

I should get back to picturing my healthy meals

I added to the weekly exercising plan 3 runs; run1, run2 ,run3

I hope I'm done with the cigarettes, 'cause I've got no money for that

maybe that will be my excuse for quitting

I should eat leaves

I filled the bottle with water

I should buy tofu, watermelon, 

I finished the pistachio, I'll add it to the list

591/30295

11-17 December 2022 Exercising

Sun

Planned Gym1 - done

Mon

Planned run1 - I did a walk

Tue

Planned Gym2

Wed

Planned run2

Thu

Planned Gym3

I  did a walk and some running

Fri

Gym3 V

Planned run3

Sat

590/30295

Friday, December 9, 2022

 8:00

yesterday, I rode the bike to the gym, and back

after the gym I had 2 apples

I have 24 nis to spend each day till the next salary ( to stay balanced and not over-drafted)

which very little

and it will make me spend less money on junk food.

I will create a new document

which I will edit and print once a month

maybe every 1st of every month

since it's December 9

I'll make a quick version and print it for December.

when I got home after riding back, I made a salad, after a long time I haven't

since it's winter, maybe I should store the veggies outside the fridge

Shabbat is starting at 16:14

and I was told that I can't make a salad after half hour before that (15:44)

I started today with: 

bread chocolate coffee almond milk cig

on this Shabbat I won't smoke

16:14-17:16

I have one apple and grapes

alright, I'll start to write my manual for health

589/30295

Thursday, December 8, 2022

 11:32

I started with some thoughts then bread chocolate, coffee almond milk, cig

3 clementines?

6 clementines

6 clementines

I plan to the cooked food I made yesterday

I'll start to use a marker, I highlighted: to make a salad, to eat my cooked food, gym 3, walk, and run.

I bought yesterday nuts and fried fruit. my friend ate it and I haven't yet.

I have less money till January 10. so, I'll eat less outside. 

but I'm gonna have a birthday so I'll host then expend some money.

588/30295

Wednesday, December 7, 2022

 12:04, 10 minutes update till 12:14

it's my day off

bad things:

I ate 3 burekases (cheese, spinach, potato), chocolate pastry, coffee almond milk, cigarette.

good:

I walked 23 minutes,  I cooked quinoa + red (orange lentils), I bought nuts + dried fruit.

I dedicated time for Raw Food Heros.

I read 30 minutes The power of the subconscious mind

plans:

to walk 37 min more

to eat 3 fruit meals

to listen to my belly

to make a salad

to buy vegetables for the salad like green leaves

to buy pistachio

to learn about health, 

tips

to meditate

to take a noon nap

587/30295

Tuesday, December 6, 2022

 11:31

10 minutes 

what's going on?

I started today with Roladin, 2 potato burekas, 2 chocolate pastries, coffee almond milk cig

finally didn't have time for a gym thus morning

so, I'll go right after school to Bat Yam's chain or go home to rest, then to a Tel Aviv one of the branches.

I think of attending a meeting in a cafe

I plan to have herbal tea or green tea.

I should take a walk, do aerobics,  I can combine it with listening to CoDA and OA online meetings

I tried to see if there're in-person English meetings but didn't see any

I need to make salads

to cook

to eat leaves

to buy nuts and dried fruit.

stopping to update the shopping list

to end it, few things I should do today:

1. to cook ,to divide to boxes, to freeze them except one

2. to make a salad

3. 2 more fruit meals

4. aerobics - bike riding and/or walk

5. gym2 1 hour power

that's it. good luck.

6. maybe OA meeting, 

7. Raw Food Heroes time

8. herbal/ green tea in the meeting

good luck!

586/30295

Exercising November4-10, 2022

 Sun

2 rides of 20 min

1 hour gym

Mon

Tue

1 hour gym

Wed

23 min walk

2 rides 

Thu

planned gym3

gym3, 2 rides

Fri

planned 44 min walkX2 but not as exercising

Sat

Sunday, December 4, 2022

 10 minutes - relevant writing

I registered a new gym today

actually to a chain where there are many branches

in Tel Aviv and not only in Tel Aviv

working out it Tel Aviv excites me

I think I should have done that long time ago

all the years I lived in Ramat Gan

and I listened to the voice/ common opinion that gym should be close.

any way

I'm excited about working out in different branches

and it made me ride the bike there and back 20 minutes to each direction

although I have motor scooter.

A teacher at work brought lots of clementines and told me I can take then home

so I did that

I finished early today. like 3 hours earlier

unfortunately, I didn't go home straight and ate the mango that is waiting for me for a long time

but ate falafel

and bought new package of cigarettes (and orange juice and herbal tea bags) and dairy chocolate

and went home and ate bread with the chocolate 

and coffee with almond milk and cigrette

this time I bought light cigarettes

finally I sort the fridge and threw bad veggies, vegetables that are/ start to be rotten

I hope to return to making salads soon and to cook and write an expiration date or even better to wait until the pot gets cold and divide the food into boxes, freeze all except one.

about the salad, I should be active like a restaurant

I should sort the veggies every day

I should buy fresh produce more often

In the gym, back in Tel Aviv 

I felt maybe I'm on a new way

maybe the population in Tel Aviv is fitter to me

and it will drive me to work out harder

also in the diet

I saw myself in the mirror

and I saw other fit guys

and I thought of how I have neglected myself

so I joined the Raw Food Heroes

and Space gym chain

and that's a new beginning.

21:13 that's it the brain start to land/ stop working, the breath becomes heavier

I should remember this hour. 21:13.

584/30295

Saturday, December 3, 2022

 583/30295

I didn't eat the mango today

nor the apples

on the other hand, I almost didn't eat today

I'm listening to RFH videos

and listen yesterday to the weekly live stream

and everything he says talks to me. the microbiome 

he says, of course, I'll have cravings

he says, when you go through detox, you must feel like crap

you must feel like crap before you start to feel good

he talks a lot about juice fasting for cleaning the fecal residue in the guts, the mucoid plaque

I don't believe I remembered those notions

21:34-21:44

I have mango, if it's still good

I MUST listen to my belly

I should have a bracelet that says: listen to your belly

I should keep listening to RFH videos + the replays

I should take washed apples with a knife 

I should sort the fridge

decide what to do with the cooked food

throw it if I'm not sure

make a salad out of 2 ingredients

by lettuce and eat it

eat leaves

avoid bread

read about health

keep taking walks

run, go for runs 

ride the bike to the gym

return to riding the bike

more home-alone time

water

natural juices

celery

pomegranate juice + orange

how can I listen more to my stomach? meaning if it's working, if it's not loose, how I avoid eating?

how can I make sure I listen to that?

sometimes, like last night, suddenly ( or not) there was an urge

not suddenly 'cause I started thinking about "celebrating (with food)" in Yefet street.

but then suddenly I saw the old and the sea chain in the port and I lately thought about it so I jumped on the opportunity.

it's inside me, the attraction

maybe it's the microbiome

alright, I'll read a little now.