I'm smoking
Couldn't I drink this coffee without it?
I guess I had withdrawal symptoms I couldn't bear
I meditated today for 20 minutes
It wasn't well done
I have two books and i’ll get inspired on the train
11:21 1st update
I ate 2 clementines
I walked almost 2 recorded km
Today I’m getting delivery or fresh organic produce
I must make more effort to make a salad everyday.
I found a Jewish prayer to read before every cigarette.
I hope I’ll read it before every cig and it’ll help me avoid/ abstain it.
I should eat green leaves daily.
The organic delivery is expensive.
I should find other stores that sell organic leaves.
Now that I have a motor scooter it should be easier.
I didn’t run this morning. It was raining.
When can I run?
Maybe tonight. The race next week is gonna be at night. So maybe I should run at the same time as a training.
I need to find the email of this race.
My belly’s bloated now.
It’s the coffee, the pastries. The pastries of potato and chocolate were dairy.
19:00 10 min update
I hurt myself again
Right before the train, ice coffee and cig.
Ok I got 3 fruit where I gave a lesson.
Before that, there was a birthday meal. I didn’t ask what food are served
There was total junk food
Maybe if I knew, I could bring fruit and vegetables and cut them
Isn’t that my role in my family?
I drank zero coke, ate 2 industrial cakes with industrial whipped cream, 2 cheese burekas,
2 corns, potato pie that has egg inside.
It’s 19:05 and I’ll try to use the tools till I get home.
Read books, piss, get inspired, learn nutrition topics, learn about health
What will I do with my addictive behavior?
How can I control it? Should I ask You, G-d, to help me? At the moments the evil inclination takes power?
What will help me in those true moments?
Pause
Is it what I need to do on the other time, when it doesn’t call me? Or is there something I can do when a fall’s about to happen?
My belly is bloated
My brother, who had some good time in health, kept eating junk today, and me too.
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