Tomorrow before school there are no coffee cig bread
Tomorrow before school there are no coffee cig bread
Today there are 3 fruit meals, my salad, my cooked food,
No falafel
Tomorrow as well
Today, 3 fruit meals, my cooked food and my salad no falafel
Tomorrow no coffee cig pastries before school no falafel, there are 3 fruit meals my salad my cooked food
Today no falafel yes 3 fruit meals, my cooked food my salad
Tomorrow no coffee cig bread/pastries before school, no falafel, yes 3 fruit meals my salad my cooked food
Wednesday and Thursday no coffee cig pastries before school no falafel yes 3 fruit meals my cooked food my salad.
I’m in bed
After a fall (15:36)
In the morning I had 4 pastries coffee cig
Then I wrote what’s above
During school I had Clementine
Another Clementine and 2 apples
Then on the bus (to a falafel) had 2 bananas
That’s 3 fruit meals
Then had falafel
Again 4 pastries coffee cig
I’m exhausted now
In bed
What will help me?
I’ll sleep soon
Then I’ll take the bus to a Gita lesson that talks about overcoming addiction in a way
In the meantime I keep falling
There’s no change
Should I start answering the 12 steps program question ( as I did in the past but didn’t finish)?
Should I accept my falls
I can’t
This way leads to diseases
The current way to change is to cultivate healthy habits, get inspired, do more of the promoting deeds
But I’m tired and it’s not enough
I had 2.5 weeks free of work and didn’t make a small change
What should I do
G-d, what’s my next step should be?
I can’t go on like that
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