I've just smoked, the second cig for today. it's only 10:24
I think it's connected to the burden in general and dealing with my personal life
which I do in different writing
let me start with a prayer to You about health
may You help me to be healthy and to lead a healthy lifestyle
so that I'll be healthy and help other people to lead healthy lifestyle as well. Amen.
ok
I'm drugged
I need to wash the dishes
I'm cooking
I went to the gym on Wednesday
I have a big gap in my studies in the subject of statistics that I need to complete by Wednesday. I have 6 days for that.
I need to tidy home, to sort my stuff and to throw away unnecessary things that take up space at home.
in today's writing I realized meditations can help me
there are many tools I can use and they can help me.
weighing myself
updating the blog a few times a day
3 runs a week
3 power workouts at the gym a week
making salads
having a menu
turning to my food
read health content
get inspired by healthy figures
relaxing
sleeping enough
making green protein smoothies
eating fruit meals
journaling,
praying
sitting on statistics and completing the damn gap I have
taking breaks
listening to my belly
thinking and choosing substitutes for eating when I'm not hungry
checking when I get the leach and harness for the dog that will make my walks with my dog easier
taking breaks
resting
lowering the gear
slowing down
writing everything I eat
using mouthwash
making soup
lately I bought olives, pickles, and sauerkraut
I should wash the dishes constantly, that I can have space in the kitchen to prepare food
last week I started to read about breatharians. I can keep reading about them.
how will I quit or lessen smoking?
running
exercising, sports, physical activity
I should have some fun
I need to shave
I should meditate or rest
wow, the dish is cooked. I have now 40 more minutes for this session and then it's statistics.
maybe I don't have to write for all this time
maybe I can read content and copy the links here.
wait with that a moment
what's going on with you, Roee?
regarding your lifestyle
why are smoking? what do you choose bad foods?
to deal with frustration, pressure, FEAR, loneliness,
it's a vicious cycle, I eat, gain weight, and eat to deal with having become fat
I don't want to see how I look so I eat and smoke and then become even fatter.
how do I get out of this vicious cycle?
I should write everything I eat
and I wanted to write my expenses using credit card
why don't I write every thing I eat? because of all the pressure I have lately, extra work and studies to complete
but today, there is less pressure,
I only have this statistics, statistics, statistics
man, I didn't choose to study statistics
in the age of 45 I should enjoy life like a retired person
I chose to do this master's degree because I wanted to enlarge my salary
and why did I wanted that?
more money = I can buy an apartment, I can pay for courses like fasting, breatharianism, health coaches, massage course, whatever.
I know, I didn't have to do it. it's my choice
after the first degree (B.Sc) I said I finished with academy and I did teacher certificate in 5 years, and now, M.A.
besides statistics, the rest courses I friendly
but s' takes so much. so much of engaging in an unwanted content on my behalf.
at the moment, my belly is full
I cooked food
there's ripe avocado in the fridge, waiting to be eaten.
am I going to the gym today? am I going to run today?
when do I intend to go to the gym next?
I was thinking about sitting on s' first.
I should always have cooked food at home
I should wash the dishes on a daily basis
I should buy parsley and celery and make my soup
I started to soak chickpea! that's wonderful!
I can make homemade hummus and eat it as a salad instead of with pita bread
parsley is also a snack for my dog
I can watch some YouTube health content form time to time. it doesn't have to be 30 minutes each time but one video or 10 minutes out of a longer video.
I can watch videos about exercising, vegan influencers, raw food influencers,
God, do I need to ask the municipality to spay female cats and neuter male cats from behind my building? because they injure each other and my dog bark because of their fights?
I ate an apple
after I hate Jehanon with tomato sauce
so, I feel it in my belly
another idea,
a pleasant feeling in my belly
do I have it now? every moment? I should aim to behave to keep a pleasant feeling in my belly.
it could be a name for an approach: in Hebrew it's less words, only 2. in English 6.
I feel my tits
my belly is bulged. it is round, it's like a ball, pillow, pregnant belly,
I need to walk, run, and exercise
I forgot about my bike
I need to be alone and to sort my stuff
is this life? I should be in nature
where is the closest nature?
the dog is a pain in the ass,
on Thursdays, I could go to the beach near the college. it's 100% nature preserve around there
maybe I can open this app: all Trails
let me do it now
wow
and this is the end of this hour.
by the way another tool: a half hour for myself daily
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