what I ate + working out:
12:30 potatoes, zucchini, carrot, olive oil, parsley
and there was suddenly short free time so I ha coffee with soy milk and cigarette
lots of walking
fresh squeezed orange juice
B12
grapes
restaurant: cucumber, leaves, vegan meat with two layers of something
coffee sugar soy milk cigarette
orange juice cigarette
lots of walking.
8:12 (17 minutes)
I'm going this morning to a free walking tour. it will take 2.5-3 hours.
I'm taking grapes, I can take the dates, I'll take water
I have a thought of drinking coffee and smoking before it start.
I'm not attractive on a dating app. I guess because of my extra fat.
I'm not getting sad because of it. I came here to refine my health habits.
a restaurant is planned for dinner with a friend.
today is Thursday, it's a power workout day. I don't want to give up. let's see if there's an outdoor gym in Athens.
it's not east to find. I'll look for later.
maybe it isn't called outdoor gym.
so, I don't mind not to meet other partners. I came here for my healing, my learning. just changing an environment, not to be in stress of sight seeing and seeing as much as possible.
I have the grapes.
I should buy a knife.
I have a cutting board, a plastic box, and a fork.
I can buy vegetables and make a salad. even just for the sport, to buy 3 vegetables.
what kind of power workout I can do in my room?
I can do push ups, sit ups, plank, squats,
maybe I can learn new movements. maybe I have here on this computer a list of exercises.
how long will be the run today? 6 minutes. in the same park I guess, cause it's close.
how long will the power workout will take? at least 10 minutes as a start.
I have a restaurant, a run, a walking tour, a power workout, and I want to learn with my computer,
so this day is full.
it's a problem that I want to share things that are not connected to health. more like a diary.
ok, I'll open another document in parallel.
I can eat bananas for lunch.
and buy vegetables for a salad. and a knife.
I should read about the damages of coffee, smoking, wheat.
Water fast till12:30
Nice clean
But I could lengthen it
Because I meet a friend in 30 minutes
And have grapes in my bag and it's 14 minutes walk to the meeting place
Let's see if the cooked salad is coming soon or I can cancel it
It's bad to eat when you don't have time
16:36 ( 14 minutes)
so, In the morning I didn't have time to drink coffee and smoke. I went to a free walking tour where you get a tribe experience, and maybe get filled by that, fill a need, feel security for 3 hours until it's over and everybody spread.
any way, I didn't eat till 12:30 and then although I had grapes, I ate outside vegetables and then when I had time I fell into coffee and cigarette.
at least I didn't eat pastry. maybe although I didn't eat the grapes they helped not to eat junk food and non vegan food.
I met a friend. she's into health. she said she eat fruits and salad every day and she eat between 12:00 to 20:00 every day.
maybe I can do it.
we have plan for this evening. a vegan restaurant.
so this day was full of activities. not so many voids.
I have a room for my own, AC. I walked a lot.
that friend took me to a supermarket where I bought the orange juice but also:
2 cucumbers, 2 limes, 1 tomato, a knife, 2 avocado,
cherries, pineapple (pilled and sliced).
so I'm reach. I should take a picture of this treasure and upload it for spreading the message.
I'm now feel comfortable here, in Athens.
but, I plan to move to the islands. and will there be a nice supermarket, not so expensive fruit and vegetables? I'm worried.
I will rest now till I go out to meet the friend.
I hope to choose a salad.
I'm not sure when I'll make a salad with my ingredient.
I like to buy food. it's part of the fun. the interaction with the sellers.
it was good to engage myself and have people around.
what about power workout today? excuses start to come up. I walked a lot, I need to rest, after the restaurant it will be late for that.
any way, I will rest now until the restaurant. I'll see later. I have 12 days to be alone.
I think I in 4 weeks I can get rid of 8 kilograms. so, If I was 95.4 when I started this journey, I hope to be, 87.4 kilograms when I'm back. and then, I'll have another month until September 5th, to lose 8 more kilos and weigh 79.4 kilos and than I'll lose more 6 kilos until the end of September and be then 74 kilos.
a good question to answer is what should I do today, this week, this month - to reach 74 kilos weight on October 1st.
so the answer is:
today:
to eat slowly
to eat when I'm hungry
to order/ prepare small/medium portions
to buy fruit and vegetables
to choose the food I carry with me
to water fast till 12:00 and eat until 20:00
to stop eating when it's enough
to eat fruit and salad everyday
to engage myself,
to love myself, to find substitutes like orange juice, cold shower,
17:29 grapes
19:51
Oy
I ordered coffee and rolled a cigarette
The dish I ate was not tasty
Oily heavy
My friend want to continue hanging out
No one is waiting for me.
Even before the coffee cig
I'm tired and tired.
I don't like so much the place I'm staying
This situation
Coffee and cig is really bad for me
Must eliminate them
I had a bowel movement
I need to expect constipation if I quit coffee and cigs
22:15 I'm in a bar
Bearded with white beard
I'm having an orange juice
I thought not to smoke but now I think of yes
I’m tired
There's a way home
Not easy way
Why to smoke?
I don't like the present moment that I'm far from my hostel
Cig will make it harder
Or not
Maybe it be drugged will help me through it
I need to choose to be awake and do this way awake
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