potato bourekas, ,mushroom bourekas, chocolate pastry, coffee almond milk, cig
after the lessons
my cooked food: quinoa, lentils, tofu, spicy Indian sauce
there was free food, I ate 2 pasta, 2 cooked carrots side
at home coffee almond milk, cig, noon nap
I came to a workplace center, chocolate cake, coffee almond, cig, 18:34
after reading inspiring material
2 pizza slices
that weren't tasty
so 2 more other pizza slices, with coke and a cig. (4th of the day)
then bus home.
1st writing: 10 minutes 8:34-8:45
what will help me?
read about healthy lifestyle,
In the next lesson we can start the project and do it on healthy lifestyle.
I finish today at 14:25
I will take a nap
and later go to the gym
I can read about the evil inclination
or how to over come the evil inclination
about deffering gratification
I can water fast now, till the end of the day, or until I need energy
brought 3 apples which are great for bowl movements
and my cooked food with added protein ( tofu).
get ispired
start a routine of using all the helping tools
meditate
read one page of TMI on my phone before the meditation session
now I'm relaxed
I have a plan till 14:25
and kind of a plan for today after school: a nap, gym, learning, and using my helping tools.
but, what happened this morning?
I started with a routine:
read some morning prayers + the traveler prayer, a prayer for quitting smoking ( I'm supposed to read before smoking) and the prayer I'm supposed to read before using the toilet.
then I took the morning pill
and then what
I had a window, to get ready and arrive to work
by my motor scooter
and I know there's the coffee cigarette habit
it started talking to me
and I did talk about it
during the way to school
but
did it
bakery, pastries, coffee cigarette
just before entering school
and the coordinator and other colleagues smelled me.
my coordinator stuck to me to smell it from a short distance ( my interpretation).
maybe she accepted that
maybe she enjoyed sensing my weakness
any way
it happened
but whatever I tried didn't work
did I ask from You to take this attraction from me?
maybe not today
I can try next time
but I want to think of other things I can do in advance
G-d, please direct me. what should I do to avoid smoking today?
what should I do to avoid eating white flour, animals' products, coffee and unhealthy foods?
a fall analysis
what: chocolate cake, coffee almond milk, cig
why? I came to sit with a friend in a workplace center
he sent me a pic of a cake
he asked me if I wanna smoke
every time we sat for such an occasion, we drank coffee and smoked.
I brought unwashed 3 apples and a knife
I wasn't hungry.
the cake wasn't vegan
the coffee and the cake cost: 33 nis
one better step: eat the vegan cake, which is also cheaper
ideal behavior: water fast, apples
what will help me in the future to avoid such falls?
1. meditations
2. runs
3. walks
4. learning about health
5. getting inspiration
6, praying
7. learning about nutrition topics
8. sticking to the daily paper where I write each step I do, especially when it's a free time and there are chances to fall
9. YouTube
10. Instagram.
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