net food:
v yogurt raisins, piece of bread, chocolate, some coffee v milk, black tea v milk, cig
clementines, apple
yellow cheese sandwich, cake,
rice, potatoes, Ghivetch
I walked the dog
coffee v milk, cig.
I walked the dog
2 bananas + lettuce, herbal tea+ v milk, a few puffs of a cig.
my menu:
bananas + lettuce, clementines, an apple
7:26 update 1
I'm dizzy because of the cig
I'll be at home and try to study till 8 and then go to school
I must relax
I took water to school
I must listen to my belly because I'm not hungry and my belly's still digesting previous foods
I don't know when I'll go to the gym
I have 2 tests on Thursday + to finish checking a test of the 12 graders
I will brush my teeth
I need to buy potatoes so I can make soup. this time I'll add lentils. and if I buy cooked chickpeas I can add them as well. I might buy a beet and pumpkin to add to this soup
maybe I need to have a routine of making: a salad, cooked food, a sandwich, green protein smoothie, fruits meal, etc
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15:56 6 min update 2
I'm fat and dizzy
My colleague said she ate bread and sugar during the weekend and felt bad
at the moment my belly is full
I need to water fast or drink only herbal tea till the next meal.
I want to eat the bananas and lettuce I took to school and that if I ate them I could feel differently now.
I'm finally home, after a hard day at work and now I'm free to study for my exams on Thursday.
I don't plan to go to the gym today. just to walk the dog again.
I feel my tits
finally I'm home. it's 4 pm
I can cook,
I won't return to that restaurant where I ate the Ghivetch. the food was expensive and oily and it was not far from my workplace but still not on my way home.
maybe I need a routine of a salad, my cooked food, my green protein smoothie, my sandwich
that I will finally make salads and green protein smoothie.
I hope I won't fall asleep, because it's already 4 pm and only now I begin to study for my exams.
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update 3: 18:37 6 min
I slept. and woke up because of the clock alarm. otherwise, I would keep sleeping. the way I eat and smoking is taking my energy. also, dealing with toxic? unhealthy? relationship makes it hard for me. this unsolved issue is like a cloud. I need to write about it not here.
but my behavior in eating is impacted by all the realms in my life
my food addiction is a holistic issue.
I still feel my belly
I said my next meal would be the bananas and lettuce I took to my workplace.
it's 18:42. I'll study. at some point, I'll walk the dog
I need to check my balance. maybe checking it will help me stop spending extra money (on eating out) I don't have. Only yesterday, I bought again tobacco, a device for rolling cigs. same set I left in the street hoping to quit.
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update 4: 20:59
I'm home. it's the end of the day. I'll study more and go to sleep.
I smoked
a few puffs though
but still,
the disease I had is over, so rolled cigs are tolerable
and still
there's content in my belly
but it's fibers, and it's the food I said I'll eat
I need to cook something. I don't have cooked food at home
I ran out of tofu, and I have the last v yogurt
I'll study and go to sleep.
I should avoid smoking before school
my colleagues and students smell me
it's inappropriate, the opposite of being a role model
It doesn't help my students appreciate and respect me
after the tests on Thursday, I'll have one more test the next Thursday and then close the gap in statistics. but I'll be able to go back to the gym soon. and I ran a little with the dog. slowly I ran.
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update 5:
22:10
I finished studying for today
I have 3 more days to study for Thursday's 2 tests
that's enough
I should read the messages in the WhatsApp group
health
I'm going to sleep
I'll wake up around 6:30
I start working at 10:00
but I'll go to school to check the tests
I finish at 13:40, I'm free then to study for the tests
Tuesday is a day off because of the local elections
so, I think then, I'll go to the gym. or, maybe because tomorrow is a day before an off day, I'll go tomorrow. I'll see. I need to finish checking the tests by Tuesday.
that's good that I ran with the dog
I should do that more, wear shoes when I walk her
alright, good sleep, night prayer, a shower, making the bed and sleep
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