יום שלישי, 24 באוגוסט 2021

Monday, August 23rd, 2021

Thoughts of coffee cig and chocolate pastry

I was outside and chose a big chocolate pastry, coffee soy milk and cig.

B12 


13:00 2 mangoes, 2 tomatoes, parsley

14:11 I'm a bit tired.

a thought of cig and coffee

I tried to sleep, didn't fall asleep

maybe I should meditate?

I still digest the 2 mangoes, parsley, tomato, 

maybe it's the after effect of the morning coffee

speaking of coffee, maybe I'll do it

but

it leaves me in the loop

i feel pressure in my belly

I sense the extra fat in my chest, belly, arms, throat/ neck

I'm tired. - take a rest in bed.

-maybe it will be easier after a cig

- it's a bad habit, if you want to break it and get out of the loop, now it's time

- i should read more

it's strange that from a place of effortless, there's a want to turn to coffee and not to sleeping.

maybe I need water


i had coffee soy milk cig. then fell asleep. 

then I did 1 hour meditation.


bike ride 


19:30 falafel. One portion , no more. No pastry and other things later.

20:22 I'm sleepy, the sky is dark



in the lesson there was a chocolate cake and I brought plums juice

then they served green salad and pasta 

and there were boxes of pastries

I had:

3 plates of pasta and green salad

3 cups of plums juice

1 chocolate cake

1 potato pastry

I rode home and had another cream chocolate pastry and orange juice and cig

my belly is full.

it connected also to a talk I had about my living place.

00:27 I'm going to sleep with full belly


free text 16+ minutes:

I can use the bike today, and ride to a meeting in TLV and then to another meeting and then home or use the less expensive bike and leave them there in TLV. 

I bought a very thin locker for them, now I'm sorry I didn't pay more for thicker locker.

we'll see. it's either 2 rides or 3. it's an exercise.

I'm not sure I'll run today.

mm, in the second meeting there is food. hopefully I'll act like yesterday's meeting where I didn't eat until the end and only  in the end chose some watermelon.

unlike last night, when the meeting will end and I'll become tired, I should stop the meetings and go home to sleep. that I'll won't be hungry because of the tiredness.

12:02 now I'm fasting till I'll really be hungry. the pastry, coffee and cig occupies the belly.

I might be tired for a noon nap in some point.

I'll try to avoid the noon cig.

I have a lot of things to do for my health until I leave the house to the first meeting. I should go out at 17:30.

there's a falafel next to the second meeting. well, if I'll eat I'll choose one pita and try to avoid a sweet pastry. I don't really have money. I spent 22 nis for the coffee+ pastry this morning. it's a lot.

where are the fruit as a first meal?

I have a watermelon, quinoa, mangoes, leaves?

and I listen to my belly.

I want to have 10 writing exercises

so, let's write the writing exercises I'll do today:

1. thanks

2. start every sentence with 'I want'

3. talking with G-d

4. how do I want my life to look like, write in the present

5. the secret

6. what is my menu, the eating way, and the exercise routine

7. what will the Roee I want to be do 

8. why I haven't changed so far

9. what are my goals 

10. what should I do to achieve them?



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