Reminder: write before I eat+ before, during and after cigarettes
Chocolate pastry, coffee soy milk, cig
Watermelon
Falafel in lafa ( big pita)
Lemonade with pomegranate juice
Grapes
Coffee soy milk cig
I feel tired, heavy, headache, weak, heartbeat, no power for nothing, want to go to bed
I'll have another note for what I feel during and after cigs
I had adrenaline before and now I'm exhausted
Another idea, to make a column in my daily paper for negative suggestions
For seeing more clearly that they are negative.
Haven't written before, I'm writing afterwards:
Watermelon
23:23 the body is tired. the mind doesn't want to go to sleep.
but the facial muscles are tired, the breathes become heavy,
I (the mind) should say thanks to G-d about being given this day. and say good bye.
hopefully I'll have another day tomorrow on Earth and I can do wonderful fun things in addition to contribute to humanity and the planet and the animals.
ok
so, now there's a bad suggestion: a cigarette
ok, I'll drink lemon juice with mint and sugar cig.
and then I'll go to sleep.
why? can't you go to sleep just like that?
I'm not used to it
- you know that this chat will end in a cig, right?
- I'm tired, the body is tired. can't even smile.
- maybe I need water and then I'll be awake?
(drank) I don't think so.
can I give up the cig and just go into sleep?
do you remember what you feel during and after a cig?
tiredness ( I'm tired already), heavy ( already)
good night.
23:30 lemon juice mint sugar cig
Headache
00:10 good night..
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