everything I ate today:
potato burekas
mushroom burekas
chocolate pastry
coffee v milk cig.
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an apple
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1-hour power workout
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big spinach cheese burekas
big eclair
coffee v milk.
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cornflakes, v milk
bread, hummus, tomato, cucumber
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my goals:
lose body fat
eat healthily
keep the fat off
help others do the same
in the meantime, there are other people who succeed in doing that
and being stuck is mysterious
Being stuck is mysterious
13:27 my belly is full/ bloated/
it is so noisy where I am
I'll be here anyway, for these 30 minutes and try to ignore it as much as possible
so, how can I eat more healthily?
I can have a daily hardcopy paper where I write everything I eat + the menu + a column of LTYB (listen to your belly) + a new column for food preparation
I should have a list of healthy meals to prepare
this week was busy
and when I have free time, I escape home, like now
I plan to go to the beach, to meet Roy, to console at a Shiva, and to go to Friday dinner
I should lower the gear
stay more at home
with Levana
make order in my stuff, sort my things, give away some, throw some others.
I need to cook more
eat my food more
make more salads
eat more fruit and vegetables
take more food with me
have enough life that I won't think of food as something to fill the void
whenever I buy junk food (oh I did it twice now) I'll buy fruit and vegetables.
(I have lettuce waiting in the fridge
and I bought watermelon, mango, and melon today)
more tips
run-walk with Levana
run-walk
run-walk 3 -6 times a week
check when and where there are yoga lessons.
intimacy is important to me
and I want to have enough of it
I consider it part of "life"
so, I can document it, so that I can see that I have it.
more tips
I have the vegan protein cookies and the powder
I can make salads but what about the dressing?
I have tahini. I think. and bottled lemon juice
I can add tofu to the salad
I used to add seaweed to my salads
I should buy seaweed
there's a shop right here. I can buy soy chips, coconut water, seaweed
(and food for Levana, my dog, in another shop)
I should journal, and write about my relationships.
more tips
I should listen to my belly
I should consume vegan content
to become more vegan.
I need to buy B12...
I think I need to buy cereals like quinoa, buckwheat, brown rice,
and legumes like mung beans
and frozen vegetables like peas.
I should wash the dishes every day
and lower my height but spread my legs so I won't be too tall over the sink.
the student who made a movement/ gesture as if I smelled bad could be a motivator for me to not to smoke in the morning.
and the teacher, Rotem, who entered the class and I could smell that she had smoked
also, I smell Carol after she smokes, they all can be motivators for me not to smoke before work.
more tips
Get motivated, read, watch, and consume content from health promoters.
listen to my belly. Don't eat if you're full; still digesting the previous foods.
include raw food in every meal.
sleep at night, close the door so that the dog will not wake you up,
take a nap at noon
(there are so many beautiful (=thin) people. how did happen that I cared so much about it, and for years (18) it just got worse?)
more tips
I must get some rest, and avoid a crazy schedule
I should sort the stuff in my house and give away/throw what I don't need
it will make me lighter, easy to move,
more tips
read about fitness, movements,
order drinks at cafes, like herbal tea
or salads
when I go to a buffet dinner,
I have a tendency to overeat.
tomorrow I'm going to such dinner.
that's crazy. that's a privilege I'm writing about it in advance.
I just need to eat less
just to taste
not to take seconds
to breathe, talk,
final words
or tips
I need to eat less. I need to keep working out and consume enough vegan protein, but, eat less.
I have reservoirs stored in my belly, and ass, and thighs, and chest, and back, and arms, and cheeks, and neck.
I should write more in this blog
rest enough, sleep enough
process my experience more, in writing
watch more TV, in the living room,
speak more English (if that is what excites me)
thank God there are enough social events and opportunities to meet people.
I should write about my relationships
and journal in general.
and get prepared for the lessons I give in my profession. it lowers my stress.
Also, I should work on being more professional at work ( improve my English). that will give me more confidence. I should keep reflecting on my work and see how I can improve.
anyway, nothing is for ever,
things will change
I should get prepared for that
I should deepen/ work on my relationship with You, the creator of the world, the One who revives me every second and does for me miracles morning, noon, and evening
what happened to the smile I used to have
the unerasable smile I had as a teenager.
now I'm sluggish, overweight, tired, and fat.
what will make me thin?
a rest, enough rest
changing my diet, unequivocally
I must change my diet
I must eat less out
cook more
prepare more food
listen to my belly
get enough life, not from eating.
good luck.
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