20:56
my goals: to eat healthily, to lose fat, to help others to do so, to save Earth, animals, the environment, to change the world.
how is it going?
maybe, it's not important enough to me. because if it was, I would make more effort.
but I still want to achieve these goals,
so what should I do to achieve them?
today, I was thinking about having a paper with 2 columns or 3.
1 is called an Unhealthy behavior of a fat man
the 2nd is called a Behavior of a fit man
and then I would write what I eat in the proper column
on the other hand, there is a grey area. what if I eat healthy food but I eat too much or when I'm not hungry.
I can't write 99% of my eating on the an unhealthy behavior of a fat man column.
so, there could be another column in the middle, for a grey situation.
the matter is, that I'm tired of these trials.
maybe I should use the things I use every day and not make big changes
so, I have this blog
and every 10 min of writing is one of the 30295 project
so I can do that at least 3 times a day.
999/30295
21:51
I'm thinking about smoking after some phone calls I need to make.
it's bureaucracy. I sent a package from the U.S. to Israel
I paid a lot of money to U.P.S. - 195 bucks
now that it's in Israel, it's in the customs, since it's a medical device, so they either want 400 NIS to release it or to get approval from the health ministry.
so, it's to deal with 3 organizations/ bodies/
and with my parents.
I'm writing it here because that is my therapy, instead of escaping to smoking thoughts, although I believe I will smoke later, after all this mess. and it is 10pm here in Seattle, and 8am in Israel.
I'm reading about a murderer. trying to understand/ digest / contain what he did to his victims, with their bodies and to their bodies.
at least I'm ok to sleep alone
alone, that is a sensitive word, I won't talk about.
this is the 1000th item out of 30295. by the age of 44, I should have reached 2555.
so, I'm in a delay of 1555.
health
I'm going to study M.A. in education for active and healthy lifestyle.
1000/30295
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