I had a fall
Bad suggestions
And bad deeds
I arrived to Tel Aviv to the assembly in the kidnapped square
I felt like having a sandwich
From here to there, I ordered a cheese sandwich, chocolate almond croissant, and a coffee with v milk. I had them with a cig.
How can I avoid such behavior?
Preparing home sandwiches and wrapping them.
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22:22
there's a content in my belly
even when I wrote a lot about it, falls still happened
I'm happy that I live alone
I feel my tits
healthy thoughts:
cucumbers, apples, and bananas have high volume, but fewer calories
and my brain knows it, so it chooses high-calorie, more dense food.
how can I change my behavior?
I should be forgiving toward myself. it's not easy to change. I need to understand how to manipulate and work on my mind, how to master my mind.
because as life goes on, I sin.
there are many things I want to change in me. like what kind of teacher I am.
what partner I want and what partner I want to be.
I want to adopt some traits that are weak within me.
I want to have more self-confidence, self-love. I want to feel that my belly is loose. that my belly is eating itself from the inside.
I want to have a flat belly. I want a lower length of belly circumference. it's now 112 cm. I want it to be healthy. I've just found that my BMI is 30.9 which means I'm obese and that for a normal a normal BMI, for example, like 23 it should be 90-100 cm.
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today I started a paper and to write healthy suggestions and then good things I did
later I added bad/ unhealthy suggestions, and then bad things I've done
but on this paper there's no place for all the suggestions
all the time I change the way to reach my goals.
ok, I opened a new page only for healthy suggestions.
but I'll finish now this 10-minute entry.
I'm becoming tired
but not want to go to sleep so fast
I'm afraid tomorrow I'll have too much to do after school
I have a lesson to give at 4 pm.
and I might go to the gym
oh! there's a new thing. on Shabbat from this Shabbat that has just passed, I don't dedicate any time to my work and master's degree studies. I'm so happy about this decision. I can read books though on the computer with Google Translate and Quizlet.
there are so many things I want to read,
for example, Rabi Nachman's book where he writes a lot about his diet.
but at the moment, I feel my tits and I'm tired. it's 22:47.
oh no. tomorrow there's also a statistics lesson. that's it. there's less time now. and tomorrow is the holocaust day eve.
and Monday will be the holocaust day.
so, I need to spend more time at home and less to escape it.
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so, at the moment, if I remember in the morning to continue, the way is to have a paper for healthy suggestions, and another page for healthy deeds I've done.
speaking about unhealthy suggestions and deeds, I might write them on a separate page or not at all. I'll see what contributes to my success.
should I continue with a weekly table to follow up:
meditation, bank account balance, use of credit card,
writing about relationships and once a week doing so for 1 hour?
30295, my health blog, and once a week doing so for 1 hour?
writing what I eat
3 gym
3 runs
washing the dishes
hourly belly feeling
shopping foods to prepare and eat at home
food preparation
weight, waist circumference
inspiration about diet and fitness
mental, spiritual inspiration
basic tiding
5 minutes naked in front of the mirror
and journaling.
as the basic helping tools
so, should I?
I don't know. at the moment I have this plan of writing healthy suggestions and healthy things I did.
I'm going to go to sleep after these 2 minutes that are left.
it's ok to write and not to read.
but I'm too tired now. and my belly is working hard to digest the foods I bought and ate.
I like this quietness
to be at home
I have Levana
I have You
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