I went to the gym today.
it was mu second workout for this week.
Tomorrow morning I'll have my third power workout.
When can I run?
Thursday evening? Saturday morning.
I just need to begin running and then I'll find time to run every day.
maybe, I need to decide for each week a specific habit to work on.
for example, maybe I can start with the habit of coming to school clean. namely coming without coffee and cigarette. I did it twice this week but I failed twice I think.
or maybe it should be first meal fruits or two fruit meals a day.
ok, let's say it's avoiding coffee and cigarette in the morning. but is the rule on Saturday and Thursday?
I think I should be consistent, even in Greece, and if this it the habit, I should avoid coffee and cigarette in the mornings.
the earlier I finish school is 11:30. but usually I finish at 1:30 pm.
so maybe the rule or the habit that I'll work on is avoiding coffee and cigarette every day till 1:30 p.m.
ok.
another point, an important point or understanding is that in order to quit bad habits/ junk food, I need to be willing to go through unpleasant emotions.
yes, another point is to avoid coffee in order to avoid mind fog.
so, I'm repeating the other point in order to understand it and internalize it even more.
I should get used to be willing and practice going through unpleasant emotions.
how do I practice it?
maybe I can make a list, or write all the times I stay with bad feelings and not choosing the food that is not on my desired menu.
or maybe here, if I come here once a day, I can write about my success stories.
like I did few days ago, when I didn't eat outside on Saturday, or when twice, I came to school without coffee and cigarette.
I ate my food at dinner. I finished my cooked food finally. I don't remember when I cooked it.
maybe 4 days ago?
tomorrow is Thursday, I'm going to Krayot.
and Friday is a busy day, I'll host friends for Friday dinner. at the moment we are ten.
I'm going to buy dessert at Hoffman tomorrow.
and vegetables for a salad. I'll prepare the frozen burgers I have.
What will I cook? maybe majadra.
and I have two bottles of tomato sauce. I can buy plates, expandable.
I might be left with dessert.
I can chop melon or water melon. and serve them as it's acceptable as a dessert.
it's not the best thing to my diet. but Friday evenings are sensitive and I don't like to be uninvited.
and things happened and are going to happen should be celebrated : L starts a new job, I quit my job and start a new job, I'm moving to another apartment, Doron is moving etc.
so, I want to host this dinner. it's also the end of the school year, and summer holiday is starting. I'm traveling to Greece for a whole month and I won't be here.
ok
my life lately were, are very busy. lot's of arrangements, and I don't get to read about nutrition and learn about it. and process what I learn.
fu** , I must quit coffee.
people don't look at me.
I'm poisoned. too much debris is in my body.
I must stop this snow ball. this train. I must arrange my room. it's messy. and I accumulate stuff.
I don't let things go, I just accumulate.
time is over. I'll be here tomorrow. not sure on Friday but yes on Saturday. I'll try to write here in my shift on Friday.
Good luck tomorrow.
bye.
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