ok, so,
my weight is 96.2 kg. I want to reach 74 kg. so I need to lose 22.2 kg which is a lot.
how do I do it?
I must choose more fruit meals.
I make bad choices. I should choose other activities instead of eating.
I should act differently to my emotions and sensations.
I'm conditioned to choose to eat, and choose bad food every day, almost every meal.
so, I have a lots of work to do.
Tomorrow I plan to go to the gym for 1 hour.
I have work and then chores.
any way I need to add walk to my daily routines and runs as well and yoga.
I must change the habit of smoking in the morning. I should water fast in the morning until the first hunger, and then at work I should eat the fruit I need to bring.
when I have a great hunger, I should practice choosing fruit until I'm relaxed and if I'm not relaxed it doesn't mean I need to eat more.
for example now, I ate 4 plums, and then I chose to eat 2/3 bun with hummus and tomato and sauerkraut and then I drank green tea with sugar and smoked a second cigarette.
I'm over weight and it feels over. the cigarettes are killing me. smoking lowers my energy. wheat ( bread, buns, burekas, pita ) make me bloated.
I think I'm afraid of the light feeling if I choose to eat fruit or vegetables that don't have a lot of calories and my body/ mind want that concentrated food psychologically.
by then, after I eat those foods, I feel fatigue.
22.4 kg I carry. that's a lot. I must change my way, my habits.
it's hot outside but I should take walks and go for walking sometimes.
now, after this great meal, I should fast. it was my second meal for today. Yesterday I cooked rice with peppers and added canned white beans in tomato sauce.
I can eat that on my third meal with cut vegetables like red pepper, cucumber and tomato. I also have, if it's still good avocado in the refrigerator.
if I finish working on the computer early enough, I can ride to my friend (and watch a movie) and then come home again by bike and continue working.
I have barbells at home
I have a small bed which I can lift on its side and have space for yoga.
in the upcoming week I have additional shift on Tuesday. that's going to be a long day if I'll start to work at 8 ( getting out of my home at 7) , work in 3 jobs, and return at 11pm. plus, the next day, I'll finish working at 4.
next year, I will have more stress at work, but I'll drop one job, maybe two. but I'll finish at 4 pm every day. I'll have to change my ways there. like bringing more fruit to school.
on July, I plan to travel, so I should run abroad and choose fruit and salads.
I should quit smoking as soon as possible, and devote time daily to my healing.
it's good that I do what I do now, self health coaching and not continue working.
this weight is unpleasant and can't stand it, I can't let it continue. I must change my habits.
I shouldn't schedule ,meeting with friends or people as a higher priority than devoting time to cook, prepare food, work out, go to the gym, walk, do yoga, run and write about my healing.
I should see what I have at home ( food) and know everything, and throw things I don't need.
I should do it with my other stuff, because it is connected.
I should clean my body and I should clean my room.
when can I go to the gym next week?
On Tuesday again it's impossible again.
I can on Sunday, Monday or Wednesday, and Thursday morning. then I'll have 3 workout at the gym.
I hope to be here tomorrow too and everyday.
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