יום רביעי, 30 בדצמבר 2015

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Wednesday, December 30, 2015
 
6:57 I want coffee cig and chocolate bun...before everything...
7:48 coffee sugar and cigarette (the chocolate bun place was still closed)
8:17 4 bananas
Now planning to ride the mountain
B12
Bicycle riding
10:35 4 bananas. Kind of too ripen. Didn't enjoyed them. And my muscles are  shivering. 
13:44 updates:
2 pieces of watermelon
More riding, thoughts of cooked food in restaurants
Means: I should eat, and I have watermelon in my bag. If i won't eat if now (it's cut already) I'll have to through it. Ok, ride to the park, maybe I'll find someone to share it with. Ended up eating it all. 7 pieces. The pigeons ate the seeds. Now I'm totally full. Hope my belly will feel good soon. It was a job, mission. No big enjoyment. 
Suggestions: pee, writing exercises, prose book
Waiting for the pressure in my belly to pass
 
14:55 black tea mint flavor, cigarette. I know it’s bad and I’m trying to stop it.
15:00 a rest now.
15:40 I feel weakness. I’ll go for the home made passion fruit shake again . yes, I should go for it and also go out..
I had 16 passion fruits. Amazing. 15:56. After health like this I don’t understand why I insert myself black tea and cigarette.
16:52 eating a bag of baby pineapple. Cause I needed more carbs. I still have some. Stopped cause it feels to stop.. But soon I'll finish with it. Cause I paid and it will get ruined.
16:59 finished. I deserve today, beside more fruit, like maybe coconut, a green salad in a restaurant! Yes!
20:20 updates
30 min gym with friends
Then. A restaurant
Avocado salad with tahini lemon sauce - good
Pad tai with extra plain noodles - bad. Cooked sticky
At home, soda and cigarette 3
Bowl movement 
22:17
I want cigarette. 
Why?
Because ************
Explain:
********** so I mourn with cigarette
How does that work?
23:00 strawberry shake. Cigarette 4. I asked no sugar but it tasted with. 

יום שני, 28 בדצמבר 2015

28 December 2015, Monday

28 December 2015, Monday
 
5 bananas and lettuce
Coffee cigarette + fall of sugar
2 rice vegetables
 
15:33 I just remind that I have at home passion fruits, watermelon and grapes.
I remind to carb the fuck up. Cut carbs cut life.
Videos
Music
17:48 grapes 
Unpleasant belly ache for a while
 
20:19 I ate pasta with tomato sauce and big salad with tofu. It was spicy although I asked not spicy.
Back in my room, I feel bad. I’ll go out soon to see people.
22:45 cigarette 2
23:19 mango shake 
23:47 cig 3

יום שבת, 26 בדצמבר 2015

26 December 26, 2015, Saturday

26 December 26, 2015, Saturday
 
Summary of what I ate + exercise:
2 mandarines
coffee sugar, cigarette and chocolate bun
3 bananas + 2
Bananas
Papaya
Sugar cane juice
Rice noodles sweet potato fresh vegetables , cooked vegetables, tofu
Green tea, cigarette 2
Bicycle riding
Raw banana cacao cream pie
2 mandarins
Banana
 
 
 
In details:
I’ve started my day with 2 mandarines
Later I had coffee sugar, cigarette and chocolate bun
I bought passion fruits
I have ripen bananas
10:43 now, 30 minutes, morning meditation.
Finished 30 minutes meditation
11:35 I’ll eat one banana see how it feels. I mean, if I should eat more bananas later or stop.
I ate 3 bananas + 2
17:21 I had more bananas
Then quarter of big papaya
Then sugar cane juice
Then I was full and not hungry but we went to the vegan buffet
So I had 2 plates of rice noodles tofu vegetables and some fresh vegetables and leaves. Big unpleasant pressure in my belly.
19:20 rode on the bicycle, then had green tea no sugar and cigarette 2
19:50 I'll try to do a water fast till tomorrow morning. And now a 30 min evening meditation. 
 
20:51 I don’t know what to do. My belly is full. I’m going to check a place called “tea tree”. I’ll have water first.
 
21:40 raw banana cacao cream pie
Later I had 2 mandarins
Later I was thirsty and there was no water I ate banana